Put God first.

This last month has been a crazy one. I traveled to Colorado, Utah, South Dakota, Wyoming, and went on a private trip to Denver with my best friends Mariel and Lance :) What an adventure. I lost someone close to my heart, but gained more knowledge about myself that way. Instead of dwelling on it, I realized that God sees the bigger picture and that He knows what is best for me. This guy made it to the top of my priority list when God should have been up there. In an amazing way, this brought me closer to God. I started to go to youth group with this guy, went to his church conference, and met some amazing new friends. At this conference (also known as Encounter), we did devotions every morning. So, now I do devotions as often as possible. Sometimes I even go to the local coffee shop and sit by myself for a few hours and reflect on scriptures and write about them. Could there be a more intimate and more awesome way to experience God in my everyday life? I don't think so.. At least not one that I've found to work. My everyday desires of being depressed are slowly disappearing as I become more independent and learn about myself through God. He has given me so much, shown me so much, desired so much for my life... I just need to let Him take control. Lord, give me the patience that you had. Give me the love that you have. For I know that if I were the last person on this earth, you would die for me. How awesome is that? Help me spread your love to people who feel worthless. I know that feeling, Lord. I've felt it numerous times. But your love always overcomes that feeling that the devil wants us to take advantage of. He tries to draw me away from you everyday, it is now that I realize how much YOU love ME. Thank you for that.
Amen!
:)